On the 5 train heading to Brooklyn College, I keep thinking of that opening scene in the first episode of Mad Men, with Jon Hamm’s character Don Draper looking around the bar for influence on his cigarette campaign ad.
The moment was something that I relate to because its something I do. Sit in a quiet place at the bar and look back on all the things around me. People watching, taking nuggets of life, of everything, for inspiration. There are a couple of things that I’ve seen on this ride that are intriguing, and make me reflect back inside.
The beached whales across the row from me, literally in this sense, because they’re talking about their Cuban heritage.
The old man with the FDNY shirt pointing and shaking his head at the Tropic Thunder poster at the 2 transfer at Borough Hall. I wonder what his deal is? Why is he upset by that poster? We got on the train and he starts mumbling to himself. Perhaps he’s a veteran and the parodies of war movies, like that movie, cause him to flash back to seeing his buddies dying. Horrible.
Then there is the tweener with red highlighted hair, filling out forms on the other side of the train. There were only a couple of people on the train before and after DeKalb there is only she and I. I’m listening to Sigur Ros and she’s bobbing her head to something that is probably a bit harder. I’m waiting for her to get off the train to cry.
Why am I going to cry? Because I’ve been thinking a lot about myself these five years after college and the constant shenanigans I get myself in financially, professionally and fortunately those things haven’t leaked into my social life in an adverse way by losing friends. That’s what this birthday has been all about, my friends are the most amazing group of people on the planet and I feel so fucking lucky to have them. I don’t know how I could still be plugging away like I am now, punching the keys like I am in this moment without them.
My birthday party invite on Facebook headlined with: “Let’s all get together in celebration of me finally getting my shit together as I begin my 28th trip around the planet.” And while thinking about these words, and heading down to the place that is one part of the step in regards to that birthday headline, I think about the other things that also round out that headline. Talking to my Dad, telling him not to worry, not give any more money, that I’m going to figure it out. Because I have to take total control, no more crutches, time to make it happen.
All this week, I’ve been more disciplined, focused, angry with my words, with purpose, being tenacious, making choices that are better for me rather than fucking off and doing the social thing. All with a vicious grin of pure fun, and discipline that I feel super-charged. This all began last Saturday, at around 9pm at LeSouk, an Egyptian Restaurant/Hookah bar/night club in Alphabet City.
I had requested a table by the bar, so the party guests that would be joining the five of us after dinner could easily find us. Did we get it? No. They, of course, seated us by the dance floor, where we spent the evening yelling over the music while trying to have a conversation. To say the least, not my kind of place. I detest having to yell over music to talk with someone. The latter statement was essentially the truth throughout the entire LeSouk experience.
There were five of us, but it was originally supposed to be six but BT couldn’t make it up from Baltimore. Scuba, Sureshot, the Singer I’ve been seeing and her friend the Publicist enjoyed our food and drank two bottles of wine and a couple of mojitos. There’s a funny story in regards to the Singer but this isn’t the place for it. We’re not even dating anymore as of this post, she dealt with this via email last night, so I’m not entirely sure the repeating of the story is even worth it. I find myself not caring at all. With mostly my friends telling stories about me, and chatting all kinds of things. The four combined to get me to dance with a belly dancer. (There is photographic evidence of this fact, to which I do not have in my possession. Plus my own camera battery is dead, and I can’t even find my charger).
People began arriving around 11, including Tendency, Signine, Lurie and her friend Fritzy, Nobody Fucks With and his girlfriend came along with Jason. We quickly decided to leave LeSouk for a less crowded, noisy place, as we’re not that kind of crowd. We walked across Avenue B to what appeared to be a corner store, but was actually a bar. There was about fifteen people in there with Golden Tee, Big Buck Hunter, a jukebox, and Atari Space Invaders. This was our place. We all like the idea of a club, but detest crowds, we like to have a conversation where we can hear what the other was saying and don’t like being crowded. Space is needed when trying to get someone drunk for their birthday.
Games of Buck Hunter, catch up (in both the life and the liver sense) were made and it was nice to hang out with people that I hadn’t seen in a long time.
We all split up eventually with the Singer’s sister, who came with Nobody Fucks With, getting sick from working all day. The Singer wanted to take her sister home. I wanted to go with them but another friend was coming down for the Bronx and we decided to stay behind. So, Sureshot, Groucho and I stayed until our friend Brian got there and then we went to meet the Singer at a bar in Turtle Bay, but she had departed by the time we got up there.
This place was crowded as well and went in search of a quiet surroundings, since it was just us guys now. Upon wandering around my old late night haunts while working the graveyard shift, my phone rang at about 3am.
It was Kiel Phegley, he was at LeSouk and wanting to know where I was. I told him to come up to Turtle Bay and come drink with us, and he said he would.
This was massively unexpected but a completely welcome and pleasant surprise. I hadn’t talked to Kiel for anything more than a few emails since he had been let go from Wizard. I hadn’t even seen him since New York Comic Con in April, but found myself exceptionally glad that my wishes came true in my previous post regarding his dismissal those being he would end up at a site or a publication much more appreciative of his talents. I’m happy to say that I’m glad that he ended up with Comic Book Resources.
He arrived quickly at the Pig and Whistle where we closed the bar. We talked comics, San Diego and talked about the shit that had gone down at the Hyatt Bar the Sunday night after Comic Con International closed down.
We were thrown out, and spent the next couple of hours walking uptown, having some forties and smoking joints while continuing to talk about a whole range of things. Comics, politics, and many other things that I was too drunk and too stoned at the time to remember. We all eventually dwindled as we found ourselves near convenient subway stations that would take us each separately home.
I reached my house at about 7am, knowing I had to be somewhere at 11am. I would be there on-time, and I would go through the day still drunk and with the hang over coming around 3:30, where I put head to pillow and slept through to Monday.
I woke briefly in the middle of that night to finally take a look at my computer, and answer various happy birthday wishes. It was then, in the early Monday morning that I said I know the best people on the planet.
I know, I know: who doesn’t say that? But I am one hundred percent convinced of that, the people in my life, my circle of close friends to the people outside that circle that I’ve met through comics and other things are seriously the Best People on the Planet. To the close ones who have been with me throughout my life, who still pull me up and slap me around when I’m either in financial, emotional or creative lows; to the fantastic people that I’ve been able to meet and talk about stuff that I love, like Kiel and many many others, and that wouldn’t have been possible if I wasn’t writing for Comic Book Resources. Also, to the wonderful people that I’ve met through the internet (God, that sounds awkward), who have supported me and read my stuff and liked what they’ve read. You all fucking rule.
So, I want to say thanks to all of you for pushing me every day to get better and pay back all the support you all have given me. I’m where I am today because you all showed support and held me up when I’ve been down, and you all fucking rock for that fact. So, thanks, this trip around the globe is going to be spent showing all of you that I’m worth the support you all have given me.